I had not planned to walk outside last night to look at the moon. My friends will think that an odd statement coming from someone who lives by the ebb & tide of such things. But I have been in a pretty deep funk over how life’s been going lately and I didn’t even feel like stepping outside. For the past few weeks I have been experiencing this intense, for lack of a better word, buzzing in my body but because I did not know what it was I labeled it as anxiety. When I remembered to do my deep breathing and sit in meditation I would find that it was not anxiety at all but rather felt like I had been plugged into a energy source that was extremely powerful and recharging me way beyond anything I’ve ever experienced before. When in meditation I could actually see a bright light surrounding my skeletal system and even hear a light buzz. But, I have felt a bit jaded lately about such things, so I decided I just needed to calm myself down and have more discipline in my meditations.
All day I had been feeling this ‘pulling’ sensation in my heart area and thought to myself “what is going on?” And so last night, because of all the body buzzing and heart pulling, I was wide awake. It was hard to ignore the full moon light seeping through my window but I was not having any of it and was determined to stay in my little cocoon. At the moment I am reading three books at the same time so I picked up the book my friend Steve recommended called; ‘Journey of Souls.’ and set my sights on finishing it.
As I am reading I can feel the buzzing in my body starting to amp up. Then I feel this feeling in my chest begins to increase as if my heart is pushing forward against my chest. I tried to ignore it and kept on reading but it finally got so intense I had absolutely no choice but to walk outside into moonlight. I literally felt as if I was being pulled, very rapidly now, out the door. I managed to grab an amulet of moonstone and garnets that I wear during ceremonies and pulled it over my head as I glided outside my robe loosely over my shoulders. It was pitch black out except for the moon. I could feel my body vibrating faster and faster as I stepped out and faced this beautiful Goddess of light. Not a sound could be heard except the beating of my heart now happy to have the moonlight caressing it. My face suddenly broke into a big smile and with my eyes glued to the moon I became entranced and began to sing. It surprised me the immensity of the joy that I felt and the song that so easily poured from my lips for this powerful being of light. Standing there in the dark I allowed the robe to slip from my shoulders while every cell of my being celebrated being permeated by this powerful, powerful energy. My spirit filled with peace for the first time in months and I lovingly laughed at myself for being so fearful and not understanding how to wield this new & immense energy of love and transformation that is coming into the earth right now. I stood there a long time with my arms spread open and my beautiful moon and garnet amulet glowing on my chest while the Moonlight pulsated through me. I continued to sing, swirl around and even do a little dance as my smile grew bigger and bigger and my heart released its fear.
I walked back in the house with a full and open-heart so very grateful to be alive at this time on the planet. Thank you God, thank you life, for shining so brightly and singing so loudly that I had no choice but to sing my song, bear my soul and dance my dance for you.
Have you heard about ‘The Shift’?
Many of you will say ‘Well, of course!’ But, believe it or not, even though we are all experiencing extreme changes in our lives, many have never heard the term before, let alone understand it. We are living in a time of great change never experienced before on this planet and that, my friends, is the understatement of a lifetime.
These personal and planetary changes are about a SHIFT into love. We are ascending from an ego and fear based existence into leading with and living from our HEARTS. There are certainly much more intricate explanations available and enough opinions, guess work and fear mongering available to keep Google, YouTube and Facebook very, very busy.
The question is, what does this mean for us on an everyday level?
Many of us have a huge desire to save the world and that is very noble. But it can be exhausting and ineffective if we are trying to force others to do, be, see and act in the way that we feel is right for them.
The truth is it is never about anyone else but ourselves.
What I have discovered on my personal journey to wholeness is that the only way I can have any effect on helping those around me and the lifting of consciousness on this planet is for me to heal my own inner wounds, my own fears, and my own self-sabotaging tendencies.
And, this is the important part, to do this with great love and compassion for myself during the process.
If we cannot give this love to ourselves first, everything we bring out into the world will be distorted because it will be going out through the filter of our own pain.
When we heal ourselves first, and stop looking at the world through the filters of fear, the world around us begins to change.
We are no longer so easily triggered into anxiety and hopelessness and are able to begin communicating from a place of love and understanding. We connect to our family, friends, neighbors from a much more expansive place. When they begin to see and feel the energy shift within us it shifts something within them as well. They now feel that they are being seen, respected and honored for who they truly are and consequently start valuing themselves more. And, in turn, they begin living their lives in a more loving way.
Going inward and healing ourselves at the ROOT of the pain, with respect and compassion for self, creates a major SHIFT from within. And, because we are all truly connected, this healing energy will continue to vibrate and lift the consciousness of this amazing planet.
To love ourselves this deeply we can love the world around us more completely and make room for the JOY we were always meant to live in.
We are co-creating this world with each thought, word and deed, and have the power to collectively change our Planet and our Universe, forever.
Let’s all spend time each day to visualize what life will look like on this planet when we are all free of the pain of ego and living from our hearts. And then expand that vision of love every day. The SHIFT begins within and that is the most beautiful and empowering news imaginable.
This is how we save the world … one shift at a time.
Laura De León
Life for me does not look or feel anything like I thought it would at this point yet it is everything I have hoped for. Never before have I felt such a powerful and consistent energy of change running through my life, the lives of those around me and on this incredible planet. Look around and there can be no doubt of the amazingness taking place in the world today.
I really love teaching and learning more about the energy that connects us all. Some call it God, Buddha, Goddess, Shiva, Source; Light…- so many beautiful names. For me the words are interchangeable but the Source of this Magnificent Power is the same. Yes, there are amazing changes happening in the world and through the incredible communication we have available we can all see how deeply connected our lives are. At times these changes can look a bit scary but I feel that they are positive movements toward a more conscious and compassionate planet.
How is your life looking and feeling to you? What changes are you experiencing energetically when you check in or step back and take a closer look at your life? What are you noticing around you…in the people you love and see everyday?
Right now I find that whenever I am looking to “solidify” anything in my life, whether it be career, money, travel, relationships, ideas, plans… things do not seem to go well. It seems life is moving so fast, and things changing so rapidly, that to force anything becomes a waste of time and energy not to mention frustrating. Even if I begin to allow myself to indulge in a particular emotion for any amount of time there is a movement that does not support any kind of holding, clenching or controlling of the energy.
The great news is that when I step back and ‘let it go, let it flow’, miraculous things happen – and I mean truly miraculous. Situations appear that, if I had planned for months, would not have turned out as incredibly perfect as they did. New people show up and we feel as if we’ve been friends forever and suddenly life is full. But again, the moment I try to ‘over plan’ anything it falls apart. It seems I am being taught the fine line between being open to the Universe or being PUSHY with the Universe. As we’ve all heard before “In God’s time, not ours”. It’s a good saying but the truth is if we are all a part of God then all time is our time and we just need to tap into the higher energy of each moment/situation. The cool thing is that we can TUNE ourselves into the ‘GOD TIME’ within us simply by being present in this moment and acting from this place. Yes, it takes dedication and focus to pave that new road to JOY but how drained are most of us from all of the time and energy it takes to run AWAY from ourselves and this moment?
Could trusting the moment and staying connected to our higher source create a life more beautiful then we could have ever imagined? Could taking the time to learn to let go of the old ways of thinking, living and believing about life be the key to the happiness we’ve all been looking for? Perhaps that meditation or yoga class is not such a ridiculous or unworthy challenge after all.
Something else I see happening a lot now with me and many of my friends is the revisiting of old relationship dynamics. Just when I start feeling a bit smug about the deep spiritual work I’ve been doing, and how ‘Enlightened’ I’ve become, the Universe comes along to test that theory. True enough yes? : ) The good news is that when we are in the moment we can step back and see more clearly that we have a choice of how we engage in any given situation. I can choose to pick-up, or NOT pick-up, the other end of the rope in that old game of Tug-of-war in any old relationship dynamic. And guess what? When I’m not tugging on the rope (old fears and ego power struggles) the person on the other side of the rope has nothing to do but drop it. I love that. Those old emotional traps that caused so much suffering in the past can be released in one moment of clarity. A moment that can change your life forever. This is true magic! Heaven on Earth.
And just when I think that’s enough, and life begins to look “normal’ again, there is another door opening that looks too good to be true. Then, of course, the door of opportunity starts to close because of my momentary doubt that I am not deserving of such goodness. So, I say to myself, and the Universe, “Why not me?!?” and run towards the ‘Too Good To Be True’ door with all my might only to find the door getting further and further away each time I draw near. “Ah, I see! I must be STILL and let it come to me or else it dissapears all together. Ding Ding Ding Ding Ding! I get it. So I sit quietly and breath, aware, accepting and content. Not going left…not going right. Feeling like a Humming bird in flight yet flying in the same spot.
It’s pretty cool actually. I feel like I am being taught a different way of moving in the world…in the cosmos. A different way to move energy, thought… One that feels much more expansive, creative and exciting. It is a place where I am more aware of my connection to God and to all beings. This new way of living and walking my dreams forward does not involve force of any kind. No pushing, pulling or jumping up and down. I sit in the center of my being without running away from myself, staying with my own heart, feeling who I am and loving and accepting all of it. Letting go of judgment and fear, and with that release, gaining new energy to dream and create a happier more fulfilling existence.
This new energy connects me to the whole of LIFE in a very powerful and personal way. When there is no doubt that where I am at right now is exactly where I am supposed to be all the beauty around me becomes more evident. I can now sit in true gratitude for my life, and all existence, knowing with all of my being that I am safe, I am loved and this moment is perfect.
This continuous contentment, joy and trust of the moment brings me a feeling of Joy and Peace I had only ever hoped for. Joy begets Joy, Love begets Love, and Consciousness begets Consciousness.
Congratulations! We’ve created Heaven on Earth.
Love & Blessings,
Laura De León
Many of us are gifted with extreme sensitivity and very loving and tender hearts. Because of this it is important to learn how to be more discerning about the places we go and the people we surround ourselves with. But when we feel the need to “…cut off the heads of others in order to feel taller” we are talking about something entirely different.
It is really not such a fine line between discernment and judgment in our hearts. I feel that if our intent is love…for ourselves and those around us, then how we walk in the world will always lead to more love. But if we have an agenda that is based in fear, fear of not being enough, being left behind…then that insecurity may create judgments in an attempt to make ourselves feel better at the cost of someone else if we do not stay conscious.
Not too long ago I heard some news that was quite upsetting to me at the time. It seems that during the most private and sacred part of a weekend workshop I took part in, I was being judged by a friend on the way I expressed my feelings. I felt deeply hurt that they could look into my heart and so misread me. But after the initial shock wore off, and believing I created this moment for a reason, I decided to take this opportunity to do some healing work on myself.
I knew that I would not have been so deeply affected by the judgment if there were not a place inside me already wounded in that emotional area. As I sat back, closed my eyes and connected with my breath, I was able to tap into the pain that the judgment brought up for me. I was able to track it back to the original wound of feeling laughed at and judged as a child. I was 11 yrs. old when my family moved from Chicago into the suburbs of Illinois. I was plucked from the safety of a multi-cultural city to a homogenized suburban neighborhood that did not tolerate differences. From my first day of 4th grade in my new school until I became a freshman in High School I was taunted on a daily basis.
That sweet little girl did not understand she was being judged, not by her heart, but by the fear of others around the color of her skin. Not understanding that their hate had nothing to do with who I was, I blamed myself, and internalized the shame. It is easy to understand now why my friend’s judgment about my emotions would trigger the memory of being judged as a little girl.
The gift from that experience from my childhood is that it taught me true compassion for others and how to support those in need. But, it also left me tender and insecure in places that were, in that moment, coming up for healing.
As an adult I can find true compassion for that sweet little girl and in turn for my emotional reaction to feeling judged. The healing happens when we are finally able to give ourselves the love and tenderness we needed way back then and reclaim more and more of our true nature, which is love.
As I continued with the process I begin to see that if I could be emotionally triggered by this situation perhaps my friend was triggered by something in the ceremony as well…something that may have brought back painful memories and emotions for him. And, because he did not know how to process those painful emotions, he used judgment to protect the feeling of vulnerability.
As human beings we can all understand feeling vulnerable and well as how tender and scary it can be to feel this way if we have been pushing it down a long time. All of us have come up against our own fears at times in our lives and have not always behaved perfectly in every situation so we can relate to this sweet soul. We all know how painful these emotional wounds can be until we begin to have the courage to look deeper, feel the pain of the past, and give ourselves the tenderness and understanding we are longing for so we can finally let it go.
Once I truly understood the dynamics of the situation it was easy to find love and compassion for my friend. I know that others have had the same compassion for me at one time or other for which I am very grateful.
When we learn how to process in this way there is no longer a need to suffer from the pain of the past for any length of time. Because now we know that when we are ready and willing to do the work inside of ourselves the world around us changes. Now that we understand how judgment is created AND how to turn it around it ALL becomes a healing experience and a cause for celebration.
Being discerning about how and with whom we spend our time and energy is a very important skill. But, if we are saying it is discernment while continually pointing out the faults of others, it is most likely FEAR creating judgment in an attempt to hide feelings of inadequacy, hurt or shame – feelings that are calling out to be loved, accepted and healed by us through our inner wisdom and the love and compassion of our beautiful hearts.
It does not feel good to any of us to be judged by another, but if we are willing to work from The inside Out it can change all of the pain of the past into a beautiful gift of consciousness for the planet.
Laura De León